He has beautiful eyes. Literally.

I wasn't actually going to write today but there's this one thing that was bothering me for the longest time. I can't really say it was bothering me because it's a good kind of feeling. It's more of a I-cannot-fall-asleep-because-of-the-guy-I-like kind of thing. I wanted to write it down cause if I don't, I will go crazy. I met him in my operation management class last semester. My first impression of him wasn't really that good. He sort of came out like a bad boy kinda type. He had girls all over him all the time. To be very honest, I didn't pay any attention to him at all. He was just another person in the class. 

Then we met again this fall semester and we had 2 classes together. Still, didn't pay any attention to him until the second week of classes. I was waiting for the other class to finish so I could get in the classroom. He was pacing back and forth and it looked like he wanted to say something. One more pace and we locked eyes. He smiled and his eyes transformed into a line. Literally just a line. 

"How many classes do we have together? Cause i swear I keep seeing you everyday." 

"Uh. We only have 2 classes together I believe."  

"That's so weird. I could've sworn you were in at least 4 of my classes." 

He smiled again. The dimples under his eyes appeared. That's the thing I'm crazy for. A week after, I actually dreamed about him and I guess that's how it happened. 

Last week, we had a group in-class assignment, and I swear for the last 13 weeks, the professor doesn't put us in the same group. That is until last week when he let us choose whichever group we like. He had his hand on my shoulder and jumped from behind me and snatched my book. 

"Do you mind if we share your book?" He smiled again. Dang it.
I couldn't even speak.
"Well I guess you wouldn't mind."

He took the book and scooted next to me. I literally had to take a deep breath. I opened my phone just so it wouldn't be awkward.

"Do you have a son? Is that your baby?"
"Omg no. Why would you even think that?"
"I don't know. Just wanted to make sure"
"What about you? Do you have a son? I always see you go in the day care"
"Hell no, I'm not a father" //giggles//

The lock screen on my phone was my nephew's photo. He was so touchy. Not in a pervert way but just the normal touching between friends. He kept stealing my phone too. Too bad, that was our last class together. I didn't even get to ask for his number. I hope we get to be in the same class again. This was the longest post ever. Sobs. Still so disappointment at myself.

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Yes, I am still alive

Kinda needed a little update on myself. I haven't been updating my blog regularly, not just my blog, but all my social media accounts. They're all just rotting away. Just like my life. School has been draining my energy and it's not even funny. I started fall 2015 with 7 subjects and I ended up dropping a subject cause the workload was just too much. I've also turned 21 this month. Hope I can act, look and think like one. YEY.

Anyways, school has just eating up most of my time really. All I do is read books (yeah right), do quizzes online and assignments. Don't forget: NOTES! I need to always write notes because that's the only way I'll memorize and learn lessons. Such a curse. Also, I'm supposed to be on my work term this winter but can't seem to find the right job so I haven't even applied to any as of now. I don't know if the co-op would take me off since I haven't really done anything to find a job. But I got everything taken care of...hopefully...by my co-op and academic advisor, though I still haven't received my new model route. I guess I'll just wait.

Recently, I've developed this new boy crush once again. Kevin is finally out of the picture. Though, I still find myself trying to search for any of his whereabouts on the internet. The new boy toy is Justin. It's such a coincidence cause all the guys that I've ever had a crush on are either named Justin or Kevin. How weird is that? I'm such a hoe. Seriously, it seems like I have a new crush every single semester. When will I ever behave.

Back to the main topic, school. I'm doing good so far. Compared the my last semester in the accounting program, International Business is way better. I just hate all the presentations but oh well. My favourite subject is Psychology. My professor there is way too cool and its just...I never want to miss any of his classes. I should have taken him on a Monday at 8am instead. That way I'm sure I'm not going to skip it. I love it. My marks are above my expectations and I hope to keep it that way.

We are also planning on getting a puppy! How exciting is that?! I can't wait. ㅠㅠ. School's almost done and Christmas is on the way. New year is coming up and I still don't know how to write an epic closing sentence.

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introverts

Credit

I have been procrastinating on posting a blogpost this past few weeks. I barely go out of my room, yet a lot of things has happened. It kinda overwhelms my mind. It's like as if I was living into another space in time and the world just kept spinning without me in it. It's weird. 

Lately, I told myself that I should be more outgoing. But it doesn't look 

like I will ever be one. It's just a pain in the ass. I'm just too lazy to even 

leave my room. 

Introvert.

Well, I guess being introverted is the biggest cause of that. 

You know sometimes,

I wish

I wasn't an introvert.

It's both a curse and blessing at the same time.

As much as I wanted to go out, my mind and body just says no. Laziness has taken over my mind, body and soul. I wish
there would be a day
where I can finally say the word
"yes"
when my friends asks me to hang out with them.

“Writing is something you do alone. Its a profession for introverts who want to tell you a story but don't want to make eye contact while doing it."

-John Green

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Downtown

 

I ended up sleeping in the living room. If you don't know what I'm talking about, go to my previous post. I tried kicking the flies out but it ended up kicking me out and I was left to sleep in the living room since there were no more room left. I barely slept a wink. 2 hours at least.

Then I took off with my youngest sister and grandma to downtown. There was a $1 flip flop sale at Old Navy and we just had to get like 30. Not really but you get what I mean. Then I toured her around downtown and took way too many photos. It was really fun since it was my first time going out without my parents.

I'm so proud I finally got the hang of the public transportation. About a year ago, I literally couldn't ride any public transportation without anyone. I never really needed to though. My parents had always picked me up, drove me everywhere I needed to. Maybe that's the reason why I didn't know how to. But when I got a job downtown, I was forced to learn and take the subway.

Anyways, we had a lot of fun at downtown. We took pictures, visited the mall, walked around the downtown area, and walked to my mom's workplace so she can drive us home. Hahaha. After getting home, I cleaned my room. I was terrified that the flies were gonna strike again. It was filthy, I couldn't even see my floor. Literally!

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Angry as Hell

It's 2:36 in the morning and I still haven't slept a wink. I'm so afraid that if I sleep, these flies that are flying around in my room will eat me up. There were like 5 of them and I'm so scared it's going to go near me once I turn off my lights. I've only killed one and there's another fly that just flew passed my face and I almost shit my pants. Now that I'm writing about it, I'm getting so itchy and I feel like they're on me. I'm debating whether to sleep in my room or downstairs in the living room. But I'm scared to sleep alone and its downstairs. The struggle is real.

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