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I have been procrastinating on posting a blogpost this past few weeks. I barely go out of my room, yet a lot of things has happened. It kinda overwhelms my mind. It's like as if I was living into another space in time and the world just kept spinning without me in it. It's weird. 

Lately, I told myself that I should be more outgoing. But it doesn't look 

like I will ever be one. It's just a pain in the ass. I'm just too lazy to even 

leave my room. 

Introvert.

Well, I guess being introverted is the biggest cause of that. 

You know sometimes,

I wish

I wasn't an introvert.

It's both a curse and blessing at the same time.

As much as I wanted to go out, my mind and body just says no. Laziness has taken over my mind, body and soul. I wish
there would be a day
where I can finally say the word
"yes"
when my friends asks me to hang out with them.

“Writing is something you do alone. Its a profession for introverts who want to tell you a story but don't want to make eye contact while doing it."

-John Green

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Downtown

 

I ended up sleeping in the living room. If you don't know what I'm talking about, go to my previous post. I tried kicking the flies out but it ended up kicking me out and I was left to sleep in the living room since there were no more room left. I barely slept a wink. 2 hours at least.

Then I took off with my youngest sister and grandma to downtown. There was a $1 flip flop sale at Old Navy and we just had to get like 30. Not really but you get what I mean. Then I toured her around downtown and took way too many photos. It was really fun since it was my first time going out without my parents.

I'm so proud I finally got the hang of the public transportation. About a year ago, I literally couldn't ride any public transportation without anyone. I never really needed to though. My parents had always picked me up, drove me everywhere I needed to. Maybe that's the reason why I didn't know how to. But when I got a job downtown, I was forced to learn and take the subway.

Anyways, we had a lot of fun at downtown. We took pictures, visited the mall, walked around the downtown area, and walked to my mom's workplace so she can drive us home. Hahaha. After getting home, I cleaned my room. I was terrified that the flies were gonna strike again. It was filthy, I couldn't even see my floor. Literally!

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Angry as Hell

It's 2:36 in the morning and I still haven't slept a wink. I'm so afraid that if I sleep, these flies that are flying around in my room will eat me up. There were like 5 of them and I'm so scared it's going to go near me once I turn off my lights. I've only killed one and there's another fly that just flew passed my face and I almost shit my pants. Now that I'm writing about it, I'm getting so itchy and I feel like they're on me. I'm debating whether to sleep in my room or downstairs in the living room. But I'm scared to sleep alone and its downstairs. The struggle is real.

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Rainy Day

Lazy day.

 It rained the whole day today.  I kinda liked it but I also hated it at the same time. I wanted to go out and walk around but thanks to the rain, I got to take a nap. Back when I was little, I used to love napping at the sound of rain droplets. I still love it today, the only difference is that I can't nap because I can't bear to leave my electronics. Sad reality. So I just end up listening to the droplets hitting my window while on the laptop, ipad and my phone.

It was such a lazy day, I didn't do anything productive at all. The biggest accomplishment I did today was to shower to be honest. I hate showering. It gets me all cold and my skin gets dry. Curse you, Canada. Oh and one more thing, I also finished 1/2 of my Woogyu two shot on Asianfanfics. That story has been rotting in my account for a whole year.

Anyways, asides that, I've been fixing my blog as well, trying to look for another layout. I don't know, I like it like this. I don't know why I had the urge to change it. Whatever. I'll probably forget after posting this. I checked the weather and apparently, its supposed to rain the whole day tomorrow as well. I predict another lazy day. It's late and I need to sleep.

And I also need to go and get a job. I'm broke as fuck. 

If only blogging like this earns me a lot of money. Sobs ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

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I just needed to update

It's been over a week since my grandma arrived from the Philippines and she's been doing every chore in the house and I feel like that gif above. She feeds me so much and wakes me up at 7 in the morning just to walk outside.

Also I've been back to Taekwondo after a month of laziness. It felt awkward being there, now that the master wants us to instruct the little kids and also because I haven't been the in the dojang for like forever. I'm just too awkward. Sobs. My laziness is slowly coming back and I kid you not writing this post took every ounce of my energy.

I have also started writing on asianfanfics again. I've finally started to finish my latest Woogyu twoshot that's been forgotten for over a year. I still have yet to publicized my other works. They were all on private because I was thinking of fixing my grammar mistakes but up till now, nothing has been done.

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