That Feeling...

Have you ever had that feeling when you feel like everything in your life is so wrong yet you just can't seem to figure out what it is. I hate that feeling. I just don't know anymore. I'm so stressed about life, college, and my parents. I'm sorry I'm not living up to your expectations and I'm very disappointed at myself because of that.

I have always been a disappointment.

It's like, I wanna write down every single thing that makes me depressed, but I don't even have one tiny idea of what that thing is but you know there is something. Ugh. I'm so angry at myself.

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Brrr

the furnace is still broken and the man won't be here until monday to fix it.

rotting underneath my thick duvet sheet, i'm slowly freezing to death.

this is my fate.

bye.

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Whatever

Whatever.
It has been my answer to every single thing in my life right now.

"Study for midterm."

"You need to ace this test."

"The whole family is counting on you."

"Don't let us down"

"Whatever."

I have so much shit to do and I don't even know how to start anymore. 

School's tiring me out. Is that even possible?  yes it is
I don't even know what keeps me going. Me? My parents? Or the tuition I paid thousands and thousands of dollars for?

I'm just really tired.

I still have a pile of work waiting for me but whatever.

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Breathe

breathe.

don't kill yourself. 

think about what your loved ones will have to go through. 

just don't.

don't even think about it. 

you'll end your life.

go ahead. end your sufferings.

but remember,

your loved ones will have to go through the guilt forever.

coming from a girl who's had suicidal thoughts before,

i don't even know why i'm writing this down. 

there's just so much things going on.

i have a ridiculous amount of shits i still need to do and

i feel like i'm being pressured to do good on everything. 

take things slowly. relax. take a break. listen to music. breathe.

그져 스쳐가는 바람일뿐이야

누구나 한번쯤 겪는 그런일이야

훌훌 털고서 이제 일어나렴

이건 아무것도 아냐

참 바보같이 울고만 있지마

뭐든 맘 먹으면 할 수 있는거야

시간 지나면 웃을 수 있는걸

너도 너무 잘 알잖아

일어나

It's just like a wind blowing past you
Anyone goes through such things at least once
Just shrug it off and get up
That's nothing
Stop crying like a fool
You can do anything you want to do
With the passing of time,
You'll just laugh it off
You also know very well
Get up.

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First posted on: escapingwoohyun.blogspot.com
Posted on: October 20, 2013 21:49
Edited on: July 4, 2015 2:05AM

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7 years flew by so fast

Hey, your posts came up on my dash again. How long has it been? 7 years. I wonder if you still know me. Maybe not. It's just funny how I still think of you once in a while when I know I've never crossed your mind since that day. Or maybe I have. How would I know? I will never know. How can someone have the guts to throw a 2-year friendship just for one girl. I miss having a guy best friend. 

Dear You,

If you had the chance to go back and fix this shit, would you take it?

Your bestfriend, always

P.

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Funny

Don't you think it's funny how you can be so in love with someone you've never even met in person? Let alone someone who doesn't even know of your existence. Hah. You can all laugh at me but yes. I think I fell in love with someone who doesn't and will never know I walk on this planet earth.

How can you be so in love with someone you've never met before?

Hmm. I don't have an answer for now, maybe in the future but all I know is that I will always love him with all my heart and he'll always have my support no matter what.

or maybe it's just infatuation.

but i don't wanna put it that way ㅠㅠ

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