This is Me Popping Out of Nowhere

Been a long time blogger! Haven't had extra time to actually sit and make a blog post. We finally moved into our new house, after so many problems from the opposite side. We had to stay in a disgusting hotel for 4 days since the owner asked if they could extend since they were having some financial problem. Must I say, it was the most awful 4 days of my 21 years of existence. The room was dirty, the walls were giving off some a pungent smell of dead flesh. (I am not joking) It was disgusting and to think I laid on their bed for 4 days makes me so icky up to this day. Also, the walls were so thin, you could hear the people from the other room profess their love to each other every night which was not okay, considering we had a minor with us.

Anyways, I would like to forget those 4 agonizing days in that hotel. We still hasn't fully settled in the new house yet, though most of the furniture and stuff are already loaded inside. It is extremely huge compared to our previous house that it actually makes me lonely. Hahaha. The The heater vents aren't even enough to warm the whole house which is why everyone is always wearing some type of winter clothing. But I really love it. The looks of the kitchen is so fancy and aesthetic. It's honestly my favourite part of the house, excluding the swimming pool. The swimming pool is what sold the house when we first saw it. Just a bummer we can't use it yet since the weather is starting to plummet to the negative side.

Life's been fairly treating me well, if I must say. Or should I just say, I finally don't care about things that's been bothering me. It feels like something has been lifted off my shoulder. I decided it's best to just focus on the things that I like and enjoy the most. Though school is still trying to kick my ass. I'm trying to catch up on assignments this week since it is reading week. Reading week is a week break off from school for mental purposes. I'm actually glad they do this in colleges/universities. Otherwise, I would have lost my sanity a long time ago. But I'm keeping it up together! I'll be doing my notes and assignments after this blog post. I swear!

In other news, I've also got back into the twitter world. I kinda just fell out of it after taking a hiatus on Infinite. I needed to get out of twitter to push my GPA up. During this time, I have realized I fell out of the Infinite fandom and the whole KPOP genre in general. But all it took me was a video of Seventeen and I finally got back into twitter. I don't tweet for Infinite anymore though. People change. Also, I've just finished the Korean drama, W, and it ruined my life. Why do they have to end it like that???

Till next time~

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Ive Been Lazy

Hey guys! Contrary to my last post (which was posted ages ago), I haven't been really that great on keeping this blog updated. It's been a month since my last post and I haven't found the motivation to keep it going. I really don't have any excuses as to why I've been slacking. I'm just very lazy. Since we're also in the process of moving houses, I guess that also made a big part of why I am lazy. From the beginning and the ending of renovations, I was the one in charge of watching the workers, so it was tiringsome. I had to wake up earlier than usual and I was just so out of it these days.

Anyways though, we have sold the house and also bought a new one. The house is quite bigger than our old one, though the new rooms are way smaller. Way too small. I'm not complaining though, The swimming pool makes up for it. Just a bummer, we wont be able to use it since the closing is October. It'll be cold by then. Nothing exciting has been going on in my life since I don't go out much.

I don't know if you guys know I love KPOP but I do. I've been active again on my twitter. After a hiatus on stanning Infinite, I couldn't really fall back into the fandom. I've stanned them since 2012 so it was really hard to accept the fact that I don't feel excited as much anymore. So, I made the decision to just let them go. Also around the same time, I got into Seventeen and I fell hard. I slipped into the diamond life.  After a long denial, I finally decided to officially stan them.

I have nothing much to share. Till next time!

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5 Things I Need To Improve On

Today's Canada Day! I'm not usually the type of person to go out and celebrate, but today, let's celebrate it with this entry. Let's face it, I'm not the only one who thinks about the stuff they need to put a little effort on. I'm pretty sure you're thinking about them right now, aren't you? I think about these things more so often that I get so stressed just thinking about it. Hopefully, I'll be able to get back to this post later on and laugh about it. Without further ado, let's get on with the entry.

1. Studying
I honestly cannot even fathom how I went from an honour roll student to nothing. My name has never been lower than Top 5 of the class when I was in the Philippines. Then Canada came. My marks has never seen the line of 9's in a while. I don't believe I'm dumb because if I actually put effort in school, I actually get good grades. I guess I'm just really lazy. From here on, I promise that I will do anything it takes to bring my grades up. I want to graduate college as a member of the Honour Roll Society.

2. Being socially awkward
Ever since I was young, this topic has always stressed me so much. Though I'm different when you get to know me and befriends me but I'm just not good at being social. I cannot make friends! I'm too shy and I get too conscious of what people might think about me. I think this is the main reason why I can't land a job. I love my personality but my social anxiety holds me back from every opportunity I find. My friends barely invites me out now because they know I'm just going to turn it down anyways. That's how bad I am with being social. And I really really really want to change that. I've spend so many times sulking over my friends not inviting me out.

PS. I'm the best friend you can ever have online. Hahaha. My KPOP twitter friends can testify on this.

3. Time management
No lie, I'm the best at time management when it comes to important things in my life. I've got school assignments all written down on my bullet journal. I was never late to any of my job schedules, personal appointments and I've finished all my school assignments on time. But when it comes to things that are not on my top priority, I can never manage them at all! I can never manage the schedule of this blog and my other social media that I end up not posting for weeks and weeks on. Maybe it could be writer's block or whatever. I have way too many drafts that I have yet to post because I can never finish writing them. From now on, I will put more effort in scheduling my social media things so my accounts does not rot in the dark. Haha.

4. Writing
I love writing a lot. But my grammar bucket is too shallow to make any of my stories look and sound interesting. I have so many ideas for a story but the story always ends up sounding like a children's book because of the words I choose to use. I vowed to read more books on my free time so my brain can take in as much English words it can take. Considering how I lived half my life in Canada, my English is still not up to par with the people I know.

5. Procrastinating
I know this is probably the hardest thing to change out of the other 4 above, but it must be done. I hate the stress I get every time I procrastinate and I end up doing things the day before I'm supposed to do it. I have my bullet journal to help me with this. Because I procrastinate a lot, I usually divide the tasks I need to do and just cross them out on my journal for personal satisfaction. I love looking at my bullet journal and seeing all the crossed out tasks. It's probably one of the most satisfying feeling ever for me. Although I might not be able to break out of this habit easily, I will put the biggest effort to lessen the procrastination I always put myself into. In fact, I literally fought the urge to postpone this entry because I was being too lazy. But I won over it and now this entry is almost finished.

Took me forever to think about the things I need to improve on since I feel like I need to improve my whole life and habits. Sad to say but I actually feel like I need to improve on everything in my life. But fortunately I was able to weigh each topics and came up with just 5. With this, I won't be too overwhelmed with all the things I need to improve on. I need to take it little by little until everything is perfect.

What do you need to work or improve on in your life?

Happy Canada Day, Canada! 

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The Sunday Currently | 7

Haven't been posting much lately as I've been too busy with the house renovations and house hunting. Hopefully I can start posting more regularly when these are all over. For the meantime, please be patient with my posts. With the wifi being so slow and unresponsive also adds up to the reason why I can't post regularly. But here is my Sunday Currently part 7

The Sunday Currently | 7

Reading this installation manual that came with the chandelier light as of right now. Also started reading To All The Boys I've Loved Before again.

Writing my to-do list for today's week, as well as decorating my bullet journal while I take a quick break from helping my dad with the house renovation

Listening to CLC's No Oh oh!!

Smelling the Pine Sol that my mom used to mop my floor and the overlapping smell of Febreeze

Wishing that we can find a house that has all I need and want. ///swimming pool///

Hoping that my OSAP application is still not late

Wearing a white V-neck shirt and my Taekwondo dobok pants //so stylish..not///

Loving the look of our newly renovated kitchen and new appliances

Wanting a boyfriend ha haha ha ha. but seriously. 

Needing a job like right now. 

Feeling sleepy. I haven't been sleeping properly due to me always lurking on the internet in the wee hours of the night.

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Childhood Dream

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I'm sure everyone dream at least once every night right?

That's the case for me.

Most of them feels like reality, to the point of confusing my groggy state of mind.

It's pretty normal for me so I shrug it off, besides I've already got too many problems to stress about.

But there is one particular dream that I will and always remember. No matter how I think about it, it I am convinced that I was in there. I was in the dream. As if it really happened.

What makes it so unforgettable is that I've dreamed about this dream for as long as I can remember.

In fact, I have dreamed about it since I was a child.

The story was such a blur,

but the feeling I get every time I wake up was always vivid.

It was an aerial view of an old cut tree.
As i said, it was extremely vivid and intense I could count how many tree rings were present.

I was inside the tree. More so, I lived in that tree.

The ambiance I get in the dream was so uncomfortable

but somehow, at the same time, felt so relaxing.

I looked so little and fragile, almost like an elf.

There's an instance in the dream where I would run and the tree would transform into a stairs.

I run and run and run. 

From something or someone I don't know.
Once again, I run.

To nowhere.

It's never-ending. The stairs.

Makes me wonder if I was an elf in my previous life.

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