Ive Been Lazy

Hey guys! Contrary to my last post (which was posted ages ago), I haven't been really that great on keeping this blog updated. It's been a month since my last post and I haven't found the motivation to keep it going. I really don't have any excuses as to why I've been slacking. I'm just very lazy. Since we're also in the process of moving houses, I guess that also made a big part of why I am lazy. From the beginning and the ending of renovations, I was the one in charge of watching the workers, so it was tiringsome. I had to wake up earlier than usual and I was just so out of it these days.

Anyways though, we have sold the house and also bought a new one. The house is quite bigger than our old one, though the new rooms are way smaller. Way too small. I'm not complaining though, The swimming pool makes up for it. Just a bummer, we wont be able to use it since the closing is October. It'll be cold by then. Nothing exciting has been going on in my life since I don't go out much.

I don't know if you guys know I love KPOP but I do. I've been active again on my twitter. After a hiatus on stanning Infinite, I couldn't really fall back into the fandom. I've stanned them since 2012 so it was really hard to accept the fact that I don't feel excited as much anymore. So, I made the decision to just let them go. Also around the same time, I got into Seventeen and I fell hard. I slipped into the diamond life.  After a long denial, I finally decided to officially stan them.

I have nothing much to share. Till next time!

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5 Things I Need To Improve On

Today's Canada Day! I'm not usually the type of person to go out and celebrate, but today, let's celebrate it with this entry. Let's face it, I'm not the only one who thinks about the stuff they need to put a little effort on. I'm pretty sure you're thinking about them right now, aren't you? I think about these things more so often that I get so stressed just thinking about it. Hopefully, I'll be able to get back to this post later on and laugh about it. Without further ado, let's get on with the entry.

1. Studying
I honestly cannot even fathom how I went from an honour roll student to nothing. My name has never been lower than Top 5 of the class when I was in the Philippines. Then Canada came. My marks has never seen the line of 9's in a while. I don't believe I'm dumb because if I actually put effort in school, I actually get good grades. I guess I'm just really lazy. From here on, I promise that I will do anything it takes to bring my grades up. I want to graduate college as a member of the Honour Roll Society.

2. Being socially awkward
Ever since I was young, this topic has always stressed me so much. Though I'm different when you get to know me and befriends me but I'm just not good at being social. I cannot make friends! I'm too shy and I get too conscious of what people might think about me. I think this is the main reason why I can't land a job. I love my personality but my social anxiety holds me back from every opportunity I find. My friends barely invites me out now because they know I'm just going to turn it down anyways. That's how bad I am with being social. And I really really really want to change that. I've spend so many times sulking over my friends not inviting me out.

PS. I'm the best friend you can ever have online. Hahaha. My KPOP twitter friends can testify on this.

3. Time management
No lie, I'm the best at time management when it comes to important things in my life. I've got school assignments all written down on my bullet journal. I was never late to any of my job schedules, personal appointments and I've finished all my school assignments on time. But when it comes to things that are not on my top priority, I can never manage them at all! I can never manage the schedule of this blog and my other social media that I end up not posting for weeks and weeks on. Maybe it could be writer's block or whatever. I have way too many drafts that I have yet to post because I can never finish writing them. From now on, I will put more effort in scheduling my social media things so my accounts does not rot in the dark. Haha.

4. Writing
I love writing a lot. But my grammar bucket is too shallow to make any of my stories look and sound interesting. I have so many ideas for a story but the story always ends up sounding like a children's book because of the words I choose to use. I vowed to read more books on my free time so my brain can take in as much English words it can take. Considering how I lived half my life in Canada, my English is still not up to par with the people I know.

5. Procrastinating
I know this is probably the hardest thing to change out of the other 4 above, but it must be done. I hate the stress I get every time I procrastinate and I end up doing things the day before I'm supposed to do it. I have my bullet journal to help me with this. Because I procrastinate a lot, I usually divide the tasks I need to do and just cross them out on my journal for personal satisfaction. I love looking at my bullet journal and seeing all the crossed out tasks. It's probably one of the most satisfying feeling ever for me. Although I might not be able to break out of this habit easily, I will put the biggest effort to lessen the procrastination I always put myself into. In fact, I literally fought the urge to postpone this entry because I was being too lazy. But I won over it and now this entry is almost finished.

Took me forever to think about the things I need to improve on since I feel like I need to improve my whole life and habits. Sad to say but I actually feel like I need to improve on everything in my life. But fortunately I was able to weigh each topics and came up with just 5. With this, I won't be too overwhelmed with all the things I need to improve on. I need to take it little by little until everything is perfect.

What do you need to work or improve on in your life?

Happy Canada Day, Canada! 

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The Sunday Currently | 7

Haven't been posting much lately as I've been too busy with the house renovations and house hunting. Hopefully I can start posting more regularly when these are all over. For the meantime, please be patient with my posts. With the wifi being so slow and unresponsive also adds up to the reason why I can't post regularly. But here is my Sunday Currently part 7

The Sunday Currently | 7

Reading this installation manual that came with the chandelier light as of right now. Also started reading To All The Boys I've Loved Before again.

Writing my to-do list for today's week, as well as decorating my bullet journal while I take a quick break from helping my dad with the house renovation

Listening to CLC's No Oh oh!!

Smelling the Pine Sol that my mom used to mop my floor and the overlapping smell of Febreeze

Wishing that we can find a house that has all I need and want. ///swimming pool///

Hoping that my OSAP application is still not late

Wearing a white V-neck shirt and my Taekwondo dobok pants //so stylish..not///

Loving the look of our newly renovated kitchen and new appliances

Wanting a boyfriend ha haha ha ha. but seriously. 

Needing a job like right now. 

Feeling sleepy. I haven't been sleeping properly due to me always lurking on the internet in the wee hours of the night.

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Childhood Dream

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I'm sure everyone dream at least once every night right?

That's the case for me.

Most of them feels like reality, to the point of confusing my groggy state of mind.

It's pretty normal for me so I shrug it off, besides I've already got too many problems to stress about.

But there is one particular dream that I will and always remember. No matter how I think about it, it I am convinced that I was in there. I was in the dream. As if it really happened.

What makes it so unforgettable is that I've dreamed about this dream for as long as I can remember.

In fact, I have dreamed about it since I was a child.

The story was such a blur,

but the feeling I get every time I wake up was always vivid.

It was an aerial view of an old cut tree.
As i said, it was extremely vivid and intense I could count how many tree rings were present.

I was inside the tree. More so, I lived in that tree.

The ambiance I get in the dream was so uncomfortable

but somehow, at the same time, felt so relaxing.

I looked so little and fragile, almost like an elf.

There's an instance in the dream where I would run and the tree would transform into a stairs.

I run and run and run. 

From something or someone I don't know.
Once again, I run.

To nowhere.

It's never-ending. The stairs.

Makes me wonder if I was an elf in my previous life.

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Summer's Finally Here!

Summer's here! Finally! But that means I haven't done anything since school ended for me on April. I've been so unproductive. I haven't enrolled for the fall semester and yet and summer semester is almost finished. Hopefully, I get to go to school next week and enroll.

It's been forever since my last post. My laptop and wi-fi has been acting up lately and it's hard to even get a stable connection. I have been wanting to post an entry for a while but because of my wifi situation, I couldn't. Actually, since I started writing on this entry, my wifi turned off and on over 10 times. I usually post in the night but because of my slow connection, I tend to just use the laptop in the morning where everyone is off to work and school. I have the wi-fi is all to myself.

On the other hand, the house is getting renovated. We're moving!! Finally. I'm not really too fond of our neighbourhood. And finally after 5 years, we are moving once again. It's such a hassle but I'm not even complaining. We've been looking at houses outside our city and just thinking about how I'll be away from the city scares me. I guess I've grown to depend on the city's infrastructures and environment. Which is actually kind of pathetic. I have my fingers crossed behind my back that we can find a house in the city. Back to the renovations, it's been about 2 weeks now and the renovation is still on-going. The contractor basically demolished almost everything. He probably wants to buy this house because he wants every single thing perfect and all the things be expensive.

My goal this summer is to be able to get a part-time job. Ugh. I have been complaining about being broke but I haven't done any job searching at all. I'm so stupid. I'm broke af. I literally have $0.00 in my chequing account. I'm so pitiful. I also want to be able to go to the beaches before we move. Specifically the beach on this post. I was on a cliff when I took the photo.

I'll finish this entry over here and have a good day everyone.

P.S I have also updated the template of my blog!! I love it. I prefer this more than my last template which had some pink detail to it. I love the minimalist feel to this template.

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